Most days I wander through my mundane life, without any real purpose.  I long to feel empowered, to live life with purpose, to feel called.  What does that mean? Called people have life figured out. Their hair is in place. The home is perfect. The wrinkles of life are ironed out. Called people are extraordinary, but my life isn’t anything like that. I am ordinary. My life is messy. Full of spilled milk. Unplanned. Imperfect. Uncalled.

Negative Self-Talk

Negative self-talk. We all have it.  It is the voice of doubt saying “I am not good enough.”  I have nothing special to offer this world.  What if each one of us has a calling that we haven’t tapped into? I wrestled with similar thoughts in I Missed My Calling, Now What?   

Let us shift that thinking and start believing the possible. Background is the series of events that shape who you are. Bring your background, make yourself available. Show up, share your story, and live your calling.

Esther in Disguise

That is what Esther did.  Esther is a woman I have been watching for several months. She is in the midst of a crisis in her family.  Her husband screwed up. Do I hear a “me too?”  We can all relate.  Not one of us is perfect, but he really messed up and is absent from their home for a while. Esther displays shining effort to put her family back together in his absence. She nurtures the young ones in the home and rebuilds relationships with her elder children. She is amazing, not because she thinks so, but because everyone watching agrees there is something special about her. She wears a superhero cape, not because she has a superpower, but because she shows up daily, using her gifts to live, restore, and continually love her family. She is a superhero in disguise.


Everyone wants to feel superhuman to some degree. I feel special when my 4-year-old daughter asks, “Should I call you Momma, or should I say, Queen?” She is in the princess stage and I hope it is because she sees something in my daily efforts she likes and wants to procure in herself. There is another Queen I know, this one is in the Bible, and her name is Esther. She was an orphan and she did not want to be Queen, yet the title was thrust upon her. Mordecai, who acted as her Father, offended Haman who was a trusted advisor to the King. Haman issued a decree to kill all Jewish people because Mordecai would not bow to him. Here is where Esther’s heritage becomes important. She is of Jewish descent and Mordecai rebukes her for not helping her people; he calls her into action by revealing her bloodline to the King and asking for help. After fasting Esther summons courage lives like she was dying, and agrees to go to the King even though it could cost her her life. The story ends favorably as Haman’s plot is foiled and he and his children are killed. The Jewish people are saved by Esther’s courageous efforts to step up when called.  She was ordinary and her uniqueness was called upon at a necessary time to complete an awesome feat.

Be Awesome

It calls to mind the “Be Awesome” game that we play at our house. As we eat breakfast in the morning we call each other to “be awesome.” We don’t have a superpower, or a cape in our closet, but we challenge each family member to find a problem and solve it, to go out of our way to make someone’s day, to learn something new, to “be awesome.” Better yet, at dinner, we go around the table and discuss the “awesomeness” of the day. Each of us knows that he is accountable at the end of the day to share how ordinary efforts become awesome.

In closing let’s recognize that the background of who you are may be messy, but it is your story and it is usable. The beautiful mess may one day be called to something extraordinary. Be available. Be present. Be humble. Be ready to use your ordinary to “be awesome” so that you can be Called. And, be sure to share your “awesome” story in the comments.